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Thank You, Narcissists, For Being The Catalyzation For My Growth


Thank You, Narcissists, For Being The Catalyzation For My Growth

Written By: Daniela Grageda (Bio Below)

My story is not a single experience of me dealing with narcissistic people — but a series of episodes where I submitted to narcissistic energies.

A few of my experiences which I would like to share with you briefly, are:

  • Moving from Mexico to Arizona as a kid: I was verbally bullied in elementary school. Since I did not know English at the time, it was easier for people to make me feel inferior.
  • Living With A Toxic Family: My Family members enjoyed laughing at me through jokes and sarcasm (which was never my thing). They would often use my sensitivity to their advantage to bring me down.
  • Staying In Toxic Relationships (friendships / romantic & non-romantic relationships): I was expected to fill up a hole they did not know how to “fill” themselves.
  • People in general: Many people attempted to control my divine heart from shining bright by telling me how to behave.

Thank You, Narcissists, For Being The Catalyzation For My Growth

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I want to share with you that through these scenarios, I met more of myself (and keep on doing so).

I’ve acquainted with my terrain to know what is & isn’t acceptable.

I’ve embraced Respons-ability as a human being!

And I’ve chosen to respond accordingly, standing up for myself & finally speaking up (when necessary) / engaging differently, or simply not giving them more of my energy by cutting communication / walking away.

There is POWER in walking away!

Narcissists will continue to exist as long as we accept living in a fearful state.

There are narcissists, but also irresponsible beings who are not transparent, honest, vulnerable, & aren’t willing to accept themselves as they are!

Instead, they will put up a wall to protect that which is already cracked.

I held the “strong” / “nothing can hurt me” facade for so long after being brutalized by some family relatives & others, to not show my vulnerability, how much it actually hurt and how sensitive I indeed was.

It wasn’t them, but I, who hadn’t voiced, accepted & honored my terrain. It was I who hadn’t stood my ground & stated “enough is enough” when it was enough.

You see, it is not a one-way street!

I allowed myself to be treated as I was treated, although it was painful to admit it.

“What if I lose this person?”

“What if she / he won’t love me anymore?”

“Wha..What if I’m wrong?”

These were some of the thoughts that surfaced when I sought to speak up.

But, I switched it up…

“What if I gain more from this relationship?”

“What if she/he loves me even more because I’ve been honest & truthful to myself?”

“And What if I’m wrong & follow my gut anyway?”

This was when it all changed.

When I was willing to shift my perspective & explore my inner world & honor it.

I mean to follow through with what my gut/intuition/heart/guides were pointing at by honoring it.

Even when it was scary, I did it anyway…and you know what I discovered?

Liberty. Freedom. Expansion.

The more I followed through my highest path — regardless of discomfort & fear, the more freedom I began to experience.

Therefore, I thank you, narcissistic ones, for being the catalysts (Catalyzation) of my divine expansion.

About Daniela Grageda

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Daniela Grageda is an Intuitive Writer, Messenger, & Alchemist among many other “titles”. 

Her intent is to help you remember & awaken your divinity through meditative weavings, intuitive guidance & being.

Daniela is the author of The Cauldron of The Weaving Alchemist – A guide into The New Era 101 (Ebook).

Follo her at:

https://www.instagram.com/dani.grageda_/

https://www.facebook.com/dani.grageda.0/

Struggling With C-PTSD?

I often say that living with a narcissist is like living in a war zone! This comparison may very well seem hyperbolic, but research has shown that living around narcissists can have the same effects on a person’s mind as people living in a war zone!

I wrote an article describing the “10+ Mental Illnesses Caused By Staying With Narcissists“.

These people are monsters, plain and simple.

If you are struggling with emotional flashbacks, dealing with mental and emotional battles that NO ONE but yourself seems to see and feel, and if you find it hard to get out of bed every day, you may be dealing with C-PTSD.

As great as support groups may be, or as profound as articles can be, they are no substitute for professional help. 

Sometimes the best way to heal and move forward is with therapy.

Speaking with someone and getting the hurt off your chest is a great way to unload.

Online Therapy is a site that offers visitors the chance to speak with professional therapists who will be able to help you get through your emotional and psychological battles.

If you sign up with my link, you can get 20% off your first month’s session.

Online Therapy

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I call myself the Rational Humorist. Narcs to me are cancer to humanity. The only way to beat cancer is to fight back against it.

The best way to defeat a narc is to see them as the jokes they are.

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